Quadrants

My life is divided into four quadrants. The quadrant QHate is populated with activities I am not good at and also hate like Science. I flunked Chemistry and did not take Physics as an elective despite my Mother’s inexplicable insistence that I would love it. My quadrant QDream is filled with activities I am not good at but which I like. I have always loved baseball but discovered I would not be making a living at it in fourth grade Little League. I played hardball all through high school on park department and church league teams where nobody gets cut. Later I played twenty years of softball. No false modesty: I stunk. My QIrony quadrant contains activities I am actually good at but do not particularly enjoy. Math is one. Based on my scores and grades, my counselor in college suggested I major in it. Calculus? No thank you. The QRare quadrant is where everyone wants to live. It contains activities I am both good at and love. My QRare is fairly empty as if following social distancing protocols. Eating is one example I can think of. I wanted to add a fifth quadrant of neutral stuff but that would expose my professed Math proficiency as a lie. Everyone learns how to avoid QHate but my time in QIrony might have been better spent in QDream. I could have scrounged for any Baseball gopher job, like taking tickets at a Minor League ballpark. I could have done research or run errands for writers. Maybe work my way to a higher rung on the ladder of my passions. But that probably would have damaged the QDream of being a husband, father, and grandfather. So all is well. Except for the nagging question of whether I should have taken Physics.